My (22F) boyfriend (32M) won’t let me break up with him. I feel like I’m stuck in a relationship I don’t want to be in. [UPDATE]

My previous post: https://www.reddit.com/r/relationship_advice/comments/11jk49k/my_22f_boyfriend_32m_wont_let_me_break_up_with/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=ios_app&utm_name=ioscss&utm_content=2&utm_term=1

Hey guys, so an update on the relationship I was in for 7 months – I finally did it and broke up with him. I broke up with him a few weeks ago, messaged him firmly telling him to not contact me and that it’s not a negotiation, and blocked him. I’ve received a few no caller ID miscalls but I haven’t answered because I know it’s him. I know he’s probably very shocked that I had the balls to actually break up with him and go through with it since he knew he had a lot of power over me. I’m proud of myself for going through with it and finally taking my power back.

I didn’t tell my parents. Unfortunately, I don’t have the type of relationship that allows me to be comfortable with them about these things. I know they’ll probably blame + yell at me and right now I can’t handle that on top of the emotions I’m dealing with.

I’m not sure about anything right now. Some days I really miss him and get angry at myself for ending the relationship. Other days I’m so happy that I don’t have someone constantly monitoring my every move and silencing me when I say something. I’m confused and hurt at the same time. I love him but I know I shouldn’t after what he did to me. It’s harder than I thought it would be.

Besides this, I just want to thank everyone who personally messaged me to ask me if I’m OK. I am getting there day by day and I started working to keep myself busy and out of the house. Hopefully with time I’ll heal.