My 31f husband 32m admitted to trying to get me pregnant… and I’m broken.

Sorry if this is disjointed. Throwaway because my bil follows my main.

This morning he admitted that he has been trying to get me pregnant because I am getting older, and he doesn’t want me to regret my choice like those other women. (my bfs near exact phrasing.) I have always been clear about my boundaries. No carrying. Pregnancy terrifies me and I’ve always wanted to adopt anyway. I was considering fostering before I even met my bf 4 years ago. I have been trying to get a partial hysterectomy for a couple years, but my doctors have been giving me the ring around. I also admittedly second guess myself when I found out the majority of my family on both sides have had anesthesia awareness two have been have been in therapy for ptsd from it. So I have hesitated this past year, and might decide against it. We were married in October. This only came up because I have been feeling like sick. I thought I had the flew and have only just been feeling better recently, and I told him I was going out to my friend’s bachelorette. He asked if I was going to be the DD and got mad when I said no. He said I shouldn’t be drinking when I’m sick. I told him I was fine. I was at him because he was being what I thought was silly. Until he dropped the fuck bomb what if you’re pregnant? I can’t take birth control for hormonal reason btw, only the copper iud which I got put in and removed the same day in the er because it had shifted already and was causing me intense pain. I ask him why he thought that—if a condom had broke. I was wracking my brain and then he just started to cry and told me we didn’t have the money for adoption and that he hadn’t been using a condom the last few times we’d had sex.

He is still crying. I’m am siting on the toilet. I don’t know what to say.

He said told me everything he’s read is that women regret not having children.

I think he genuinely believes he was doing me a service, but I’m not sure because he’s also crying. It honestly sounds like he is having a breakdown.

How do I navigate this? Is this something that can be navigated? I literally thought this man was the love of my life. I just told my sister how how stupidly happy we were yesterday.