You’re not an idiot at all. You were following his lead. I’m sorry that happened to you. Moving forward I’d continue to cm follow his lead and match his energy. Don’t waste time on him. Focus on getting to know other people. Can you join sone clubs??
The non-disclosure agreement is worrying. Does it prevent you from saying he had an affair after the divorce and outside of courtroom settings?
If he wants to walk away pretending he's the good guy, you need to ensure it's worth putting up with his false narrative.
Definitely break up. You can't fake physical attraction.
You’re not an idiot at all. You were following his lead. I’m sorry that happened to you. Moving forward I’d continue to cm follow his lead and match his energy. Don’t waste time on him. Focus on getting to know other people. Can you join sone clubs??